Paralysis By Analysis

I heard this term today and I immediately said, "That is so me. To a T." I will analyze something from every angle until there's nothing left. Nothing left of my sanity either. I will always find something to worry about even after being reassured that everything will work out. And it always does. I just can't help it.

As I've said before, this process is one of the most nerve-wracking things I've ever gone through. The only thing I can control is taking the medication I'm currently on (which I'll get to) and giving myself the injections when it's time to. Everything else is up to my body. The same body that can't act right and get pregnant on its own. So maybe it's understandable why I'd worry about every little thing. I just have to trust that things will work out like they're supposed to and roll with the punches. Yikes!

I went to Dr. Butler's office last Wednesday to have an ultrasound and lab work, including a pregnancy test. When the nurse was doing the ultrasound, she mentioned how thick my uterine lining was and I needed to have a cycle (it was day 30). She also showed me how both ovaries have multiple cysts on them. She said they looked polycystic and when I mentioned how Dr. Butler had told me before I didn't have that, she said that the cysts come and go and it would depend on when in my cycle he looked at my ovaries. So I guess that means that my first and second surgeries were done at the time when no cysts are present. Having polycystic ovaries makes sense because I was told about 12 years ago that I had it and I have other symptoms of it, including acne, facial hair, weight gain, etc. So, I guess we'll deal with that when we have to.

But for right now, I'm taking Provera to bring on my period. I started taking it last Wednesday night and will stop taking it this Friday. My period should start 2-3 days after stopping it and then I'll go into the office on day 3 of my cycle for my baseline ultrasound. My concern is that the cysts will still be there and I won't be able to start the injections for another month. I did some research online to see if Provera, which is a contraceptive, would make cysts disappear. From what I've found so far, it doesn't. :-( I've considered calling the office to ask Cynthia or Dee if it would, but I've decided against it because there's nothing I can do about it either way. I'll just have to wait and see what happens. Yikes again!

I should know something by this time next week, so I'll update then. Until then, we have fun plans to be on the lake this weekend to celebrate Memorial Day!